Get comfy...this is a long one!
I thought I had nothing better to do than get my whole ticket booked with Just The Flight who I have used before when I've taken a long haul trip. Turns out actually no, that's not the case. Seems last night when I went to make my booking online things have changed somewhat!! I go online and book as normal then I receive an email this morning saying that they can't book the entire itinerary because of new rules regarding inter-airline e-tickets. Why offer the itinerary in the first plce then? My flight route is: Manchester to Paris, Paris to St Maarten, St Maarten to Tortola. This was one of the cheapest routes and also the one with the least amount of stopovers. And with all the hassle of flying through the US nowadays I didn't want to go that way and saddle myself with an overnight stay due to the flight timetables! So Air France was coming out a winner...or so I thought.
I called JTF to find out why they couldn't do my flight and they suggested calling Air France direct. So I thought stuff this phoning malarkey, lets do it online. I get all the way to paying for the flight only to find that AF's system will not allow me to book with my Maestro card because it is issued by HSBC. Apparently all HSBC Maestro cards have an issue number. Their system does not allow issue numbers with Maestro cards so I'm supposed to pay an additional £4 supplement to use my Visa?! I think not. I called their customer service department and the nice gentleman on the other end said you can pay by Visa and we'll knock off the surcharge because it's our fault. He says he'll make sure he writes that on my booking and when I call back with my Visa details they can push it through likkety-split!
HA!!! After calling my bank to make sure they would allow the transaction (the cost of the flight is more than my Visa limit) and going through all their shenanigans of transferring funds from my bank account to the Visa account, I finally get back on the phone to Air France only to be told that the "nice" gentleman did NOT put my waived surcharge on the system and the snotty lady said I would have to pay!! Well, red rag to a bull...I bloody don't think so. After much ranting on my part she said she would speak to a supervisor to find out who had spoken to me before and sort it out. She finally comes back to the call and says OK, we'll waive the fee, let's get you booked!
The best part of 2 hours, perhaps more, was spent just getting me from Manchester to St Maarten. I now have to book the short flights from there to Tortola and back online myself. I've got one half done, the other needs my passport details so that'll have to wait til I get back home. What a frigging nightmare!! And I've still to sort travel insurance and liability insurance yet. OMG!! Once the fees show on my account I'll know for sure, but I think it has turned out cheaper doing it this way. Perhaps by about £30 at the most but still, that's £30 towards my other costs. Yay!!
I've got the moving van booked. And the storage unit is arranged too. I put an ad on Gumtree for some of this furniture I want rid of and fingers crossed I have a guy coming on Sunday evening to take the largest lot. Now if only I can get the rest sold, then it'll be sweet. I've started taking small boxes of bits to the storage place as he's given me a really good deal. I've got two weeks free because I'm a previous customer AND he's letting me use the unit from now until when I'm officially taking it for nothing. WHAT A STAR!! So of course to save myself some moving money I'm trying to get shifted what I can myself. What I really could do with is some muscle-y chap to help me get things down from the attic as those boxes are quite heavy and awkward to move from up there, down the ladder to the landing on one's own.
Would you believe it, but Jon has been back in touch. After asking him where he went away to all those weeks ago I finally get an answer - down south (nothing if not specific is he!?). This was after much other "chat" about my going away. Somehow he has heard I'm heading to BVI and wanted to wish me good luck and hope it all works out for me. He's sorry things didn't work out but "u only regret things after they have happened, don't u?x" He said a 'little friend' told him. Now who this is I haven't had an answer to, but I have my suspicions and they point squarely at my landlord. I cannot see any of my friends telling him (and how could they when they don't have his contact info) and I don't think he's found this blog, as later in our conversation he said he didn't know what I was doing while I was away or for how long (all of which is on here) so that leaves the landlord who doesn't know what I'm doing but I think I told him where I was going. I feel violated and am sooo happy to be getting out of his place if that is what he does. Especially after all his "oooh I don't want to get involved" bollocks.
So I ask Jon if he regrets what he did. "Yes, what I did was wrong and I know that. I should not have messed with our plans!" I replied that he "made the choice to cheat. Things not going well for you?" He answered that he "just wanted to say good luck anyway." I said thanks and asked if he was happy. "Not really!" Apparently they are "not vibing" and he doesn't know what to do. He asked if I miss him so I said sometimes and asked the same. I had to wait til the next day to get a reply. "Yeah do." I asked him what he wants to do then about his life, relationship, etc. If he's not happy then he should make changes. Hell, he certainly made them with me even though I was unaware that he was unhappy. He replies "learnt from past experiences that changes are not good." Was that leaving me for some random shag?! I said "if you're in a crap situation why stay?" to which he replies "just plod along I suppose. I've hurt enough people in my life and I'm not big for it. I don't want to upset anyone else." Can you believe this? When did he grow a conscience?
So I reply "meanwhile your miserable (which means he'll make her miserable). If you're honest with her then she'd appreciate that more. Is she happy with things?" Apparently not, he "doesn't think so. There are other things that I want to do like gym, friends, etc but I feel like I can't do them." This plodding along comment intrigued me so I asked if that was what he was doing with me? "No not at all!" I asked why she's unhappy and has he told her what he wants to do but got nothing until the next day again, when he asked about getting a copy of all our pictures. Apparently he had a problem with his pc and lost them all. I don't know what his issue with his pc is but he always has a problem with them!! Every one he ever had he ended up trashing for some reason or another. And the funny thing is he works in IT (or at least I think he still does, still had no reply to my questions about work, if he's still with BT with all the lay-offs and so on) so he should be more akin with the workings of them than most people!!
Anyway I said I don't know, what was he thinking? And what did he want to happen with "us"? He said "its a bit late for an us, you are about to embark on a life changing journey and I am not about to stop that. I've held you back long enough!" Now this is interesting...is that what he thought when we were together? "Kind of yes tbh but I did want to go away, there was never any doubt there." I asked him what he wants in an ideal world, what would make him happy? And he said he "didn't want to say, it's not fair!" I told him to just say it and be totally honest but again nothing until the next day, when I said "I think I know what you want but then maybe not?" After his "what" I said "to get back together." He replied by asking when I fly and if I'm all packed yet? I said in a few weeks and is that a yes? Yes it is!! I asked how long he's felt this way and it turns out "a while." And apparently not just since he's heard I'm leaving!!
So now what? I asked if he wanted to come with me or what? "That would be impossible for me right now" apparently because he doesn't have the money, etc. (Etc?? Hmmm) So then the conversation boils down to questions about whether I'm excited about the trip, does he want to stay in touch, be friends and so on. He actually admitted to being jealous of the trip which I thought was tres shocking!! I also asked him about whether he had a good christmas and it was apparently "not great, ... things are what you make them I suppose" and that's it. Last I heard was Wednesday when I got no reply to my question of what he got for christmas?
So there you have it. I don't know whether to believe a word of it, although there are parts that do strike me as being true. Still with all the BS he fed me how can I trust what comes out of him? I was pleased to hear though that the grass is NOT greener. Maybe that's more BS but I certainly felt better hearing it. What I'm wondering now is whether he is trying to manipulate me into staying or perhaps suggesting that I'd pay for him or something? There is no way that either of those scenarios is going to happen. For one I couldn't afford to even if I wanted to and secondly even if he could pay for himself he couldn't do the same as me anyway. He's not qualified to the right level, there are only 2 spaces available each month with the internship and I'm pretty sure the other has gone, so what he'd do out there I don't know. The other thing I find intersting is that he never asked me whether I would take him back. It's as if he assumed that I would, without question or requiring some conditions to be met. I have, since we split up, thought about what I would expect him to do for me to gain any kind of trust in him again and the list is pretty darn long. I can't see him doing any of them (willingly) so really what is the point?
There are days when I do miss him a lot and would like to be part of a couple again. But then those other days come along when I love being single again and doing my own thing, having to answer to no one nor worrying about what they are doing. It's a strange place to be in.
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